It seems........

 It seems as if it was just yesterday I was on the floor playing with Carson in the living room for 3 days straight while i was learning the tips of being a good farmer, he was such a big boy already.  I remember taking a bath with him and admiring his tender giggles as he splashed me with water, we sat in the tub for an hour sometimes. I remember him dancing to every song that came on and trying to do cartwheels. I remember him looking into my eyes saying mom i love you too many. I remember just like yesterday, getting him dressed that morning and his tender face looking at his momma with love. I knew he adored me just like I adored him. Our love was so deep and special. I was so excited to be his momma. I was excited to show me sweet baby boy the world and the beauties I enjoyed. Carson and I went everywhere together. He was my little buddy. Boyd was working  a lot so Carson and I spent a lot of precious precious time together with just the two of us. The kids had been in school for two years. I never got sick of him. He was a tender and gentle little boy. He loved to work. I now drink more chocolate milk more then i ever have.
Too Pure, Too Lovely, To Live On Earth. (Not fair to have such a perfect child that they cant be here, I sometimes don't want a perfect child for my selfish reasons. I know he is happy and enjoying himself though and waiting for the day we are together again)
As I think about these memories of Carson, it seems as if it was just yesterday, but also it seems as if it was a million years ago that I held him and kissed him. Oh how I miss him. I never, ever knew the deep love between a mother and a son until having childidren. It is unlike anything I have ever experienced. I love being a mother! My love is so deep and never ending for my Carson that my grief is oh so deep. My grief connects me to Carson. It hurts oh so bad so often, but it makes me know my love was as deep as the grief.  I love you too many!

Day of Service

These always get put in backward every time that i load them. I think that I am doing them in order but then they go in backwards. Yesterday was a day of remembering Carson. Aunt Kath was so nice and went and fixed up his resting place because they had done nothing to it since the funeral. It was kind of making me mad, She went up and racked it out and the day of service they had left over sod. We asked if we could have some and we told yes. Sam Harris took his family up there, along with Kath and got it all ready for us to come up. It made such a difference for the kids. (i guess they broke a pipe when digging the hole.) It was a day of service. We asked for people near and far to do a service in honor of Carson. His birthday is March 17th. We did the service on Saturday because of his birthday being on Sunday. We then headed up to the cemetery where the kids wrote letter to Carson and tied them to balloons. I wanted all the kids to have there own balloons and let them off but when we got them out they all got tangled up in the wind. It was fun to have them all hold on to them and let them off. The kids thought it was so fun. Cade kept asking if Carson was going to get them. He said mom i think he got them and then let the balloons go again. Kenzie loved drawing pictures to her brother. She misses him so much. Cade asked Boyd that day if Carson was going to get to open presents in Heaven for his birthday. Boyd said i don't think so. Cade then asked well then i know what the best present can be, he can spend the day with Jesus. I love my family so much. What a peace I felt that day. I am so glad that I have an eternal family.

"My Boy"

"My boy"

Before you came upon this earth,
You chose to follow him.
He who saved us from all things,
To return with him again.

You knew you'd be here shortly,
With parents kind and dear,
A caring family full of love.
... With faith you had no fear.

You stood next to the Father,
And asked, "why must this be?"
He wrapped you in His arms with love,
And said"just trust in me."

You came into this great big world,
With hands and feet so small.
You knew your earth life purpose,
With courage you stood tall.

With a strong And healthy body,
And so much love to give,
You were brought into a family,
For the life you were to live.

You blesses te lives of many
With your smile and cheerful being.
You were always such a happy boy,
With this you gave life meaning.

You spent your days out on the farm,
For this is what you loved.
You knew your time was coming soon
To return with him above.

You cherished times with ones you
Loved,
And new the time had come.
The father calling from in High,
"My boy your work is done."

You left this life so quickly,
We know this had to be.
With faith and courage we'll be
Strong,
A forever family.

Ariana Clyde.

My sister in law wrote this and it was read at the funeral. It's amazing she did such a good job. I have not read it much do to the tears it bring. As I typed it tears flowed down my face. I know Carson misses us as much as we miss him. I love you too many Carson.

Cade Baptism

                   On Sunday, 17th Cade was baptized by his father Boyd Clyde. What a special day it was.

 

 

It was special because on that day his cousin also got baptized. Cade and Trey are two days apart from each other in age. It has been fun seeing them get to be good friends, along with being cousins.

 

Grandma and Grandpa Wallevand with all the grandkids. Grandma gave an amazing talk. I will never forget that you and Trey followed the example of our Savior.

 Cade in his new outfit and new scriptures. He is so handsome. He only will wear this suit to church. He has grown so much spiritually in the last couple of months.The day after the accident cade came to me and cried and cried and said "mom Carson was so exited to see me get baptized. We talked about it all the time. I just wanted him there to see me. Why does he not get to see me get baptized?" At that time i had no answers for him only that Carson would be there in spirits. I can't say that I know for sure if Carson was there but i do think he was. It was Cade special day and as a brother he would not want to miss out on that, just like he didn't want to miss out on it here.

 Cade best friend Patrick. We love love Patrick. He has been like a brother to cade. I know there is a big gap between the two (7 years) but cade doesn't care. He loves him.

McKenzie loved seeing her brother get baptized. She asked a lot of questions. On a drive to school one day, a couple of weeks after the baptism she asked cade it scary. Cade said no and went on to tell us the most amazing experience he had. I am so thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ. I am thankful for the choice that Cade made to be baptized. Your mom and dad, brother and sister love you.Thanks for being that great big brother example in our home. 

Carson Birthday

I have been thinking of Carson birthday coming up and trying to figure out what it will be like on that day and how hard it will be. His birthday is march 17. He would of been 4 years old. I was thinking what would he want us to do. My son ...was a child of work. Anytime he could be outside working with animals, in the yard with me he would. He never said no to work. I am asking that you might do an act of service on march 16 in honor of my sweet Carson. I would be honored as a mother. If you would like to take pictures and post them or wear green. He was my saint Patrick's day baby. My family can never repay any of you for the love and support you have given us. Please spread the word on your Facebook page or tell people. Carson will be smiling from heaven that day. Love you all too many.

 

Our Sweet baby boy

Carson Thomas Clyde

Carson Thomas Clyde passed away January 12, 2013 in Richland, Washington at the tender age of three years. Carson was born to Boyd & Nicole Clyde on March 17, 2009 in Othello, Washington.

He was a sweet little boy that touched the lives of so many with his unending love. In addition to spending time with his family, Carson loved being a farm boy and was in his element when outside with the sheep, cattle, horses and dogs. Long hours in the lambing pens, sheep corral or gathering cattle on horseback are what he loved most. Time spent with all of his relatives made him happy and his very presence was sure to draw a smile from everyone near him. His life on earth was too short, but cherished by so many who loved him beyond words. He has now gone to be with the good Shepherd, the Savior of the world, who can continue to teach, love and help him grow.

Carson is survived by his loving parents Boyd & Nicole Clyde, brother Cade (7) and sister McKenzie (6), Connell Washington. Grandparents, Tom & Glenda Clyde, Connell, Ken & Betty Wallevand, Idaho Falls, Idaho. Great Grandparents, Robert & Lynette Clyde, Mt. Pleasant, Utah, Thomas U'Ren, Dodgeville, WI and many numerous aunts, uncles & cousins who greatly adored little Carson.

Viewing will be held Wednesday, January 16, 2013 from 5:00 p.m. to 8:00 p.m. at Mueller’s Greenlee Funeral Home, in Pasco. The funeral service will be Thursday, January 17, 2013 at 11:00 a.m. at the Connell Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, with viewing beginning at 10:00 a.m. at the church.

 

It has taken me a long time to post this becasue it was way to hard. I couldn't get the picture we used to work or download. I miss this boy more than i ever could imagine is possible. Not a day goes by that i don't cry or think i am not goin tomake it through this. I love you carson too many.  You will foever be missed until I see you again I love you too many.